It’s the last day of a long year.
Nothing has changed, really, to the better.
It is as it was, the first day of the year.
I’m still drowning in my own tears.
I can’t stop because of a heavy heart.
Everything in between the year was as beautiful as the universe itself.
A universe drenched in darkness.
As promises echoed through my veins, my smile got rearranged.
My laughter replaced.
It felt like heaven, the darkness itself.
Somehow it turned into my light.
Something about drowning,
Something about hitting the bottom was liberating.
Something about it was unexplainable.
The only way after hitting the rock bottom, was up.
But I needed to take my rock bottom with me.
For it fired me into everything I was.
A new being, facing anything.
I yearned for everything in-between the darkness and light.
Ships sink for letting water in, not mine.
Sailing with the gods, to let the darkness in,
For it was the source of my light.
Until when I’m full, I’ll drown in her darkness, her broken promises.
And my broken pieces will be liberated into the light of the darkness.
But just promise me to pause, and enjoy the liberation.